Book of the Renaissance

BOOK OF THE RENAISSANCE

The Book of the Renaissance is the final series of letters in this book and follows the time that Ryan called the ‘Renaissance’ after his ‘transition’. It follows his experiences with Angel of Hope, the twelfth member of the Continuum, and it also talks about the Third Vision that occurs right after the end of the era. It talks about the journey as a whole and his experiences in it. It also talks about some of the biggest questions in life that we all face.

 

To Ryan, Angel of Hope was the last of the great crushes of the era, which will be explained later when he talks about Second Trinity and First Trinity and how they are placed among the greatest friends that Ryan ever had.

 

It talks about the greatest victories and the greatest questions that we all have in life. Angel of Hope asks Ryan many of these questions as his book comes out into the real world at a time when Angel of Hope was asking many questions from him and wanted to know about his own perspectives. The relationship that he had with her was so powerful from his perspective that he was not able to find anyone else to match that. Ryan, at the end and at the third vision, regarded Angel of Hope as the end of the journey in the incarnation that it was in and the beginning of something that was new and unknown.

 

LETTERS

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in February of 2013 regarding the nature of the wicked and the righteous and saw in her a streak or righteousness through all the wickedness that he saw around him. He found it refreshing that he had finally found someone that would appreciate him for who he is.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I see the people of the world that were once good to me have become bad. I have seen some of my best friends become some of my worst enemies. I have been through some of the most terrible heartbreaks imaginable. I have also seen some of the most horrific things that a human being can go through emotionally. How can I know that you won’t do the same for me? How can I know of your goodness? How can I guarantee that I don’t do the same to you on your end? It is so horrible for me to think about these things and that I may put you through some of these things and I don’t know if I can take you down this path. All I know right now is that I love you and I want to be with you. That is all that really matters to me and that I want to do what I can so that it is prevented. To me, your appreciation for me is something that I want, especially being as authentic as I am now. I am coming to you without filters and without a front.

Human beings should not have to put on these horrible fronts. Many of the people in my life that I have come to know and love and loss have put on fronts of their own and they have walked away from me with a sense of satisfaction. I don’t want people to be happier without me in their life, but that is how I feel about many of the things in my life. I don’t want you to have to come to these same conclusions, but I feel like it will happen to you at some point. Many of the seemingly righteous people of the world are truly wicked and many of the seemingly wicked people of the world are truly righteous. There are many things in the world that humanity has yet to understand and discover and many of the people that may have the opportunity to save us all are in the hands for the most part of the people that directly affect them.

We all need to do our part to contribute to society. Many people of the world do not do this. I feel like that, now that my ambitions have changed, that I need to be with people to match those ambitions. I want to be with the people of the world who have already made an impact, no matter how young they are. I don’t want these people to see me as less and trying to outshine them, but I want them to be an example for me to truly understand what my greatest potentials are and I want to strive to be like these people. You are the first one of these people to come into my life and that is something that is very close to me. I don’t want to emulate you, but you give me something to strive for, and that, above all else, is something that I love you the most for. Out of all the people in my life, I want the challenge to be known for something positive to the advancement of the thought of the people in the world. That, despite the wickedness I have in my heart towards myself, is something that I want to have that is righteous.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March of 2013 regarding something that Ryan and Angel of Hope both experienced in a short time regarding the nature of death and the fall of all mankind. It was meant to comfort herself and Ryan through this heartfelt response.

Dear Angel of Hope,

People go through tough times all the time. I can tell you this from experience, but whenever there is a bad time, there is also a good time that comes along with it. We can see that this is the result of the fall of all of mankind. The life and the death of the individual is met with many other periods of life and death because of our spiritual side. That is the true nature of mankind because we need to do this as a process of improvement. You should not die when your spirit dies because your spirit will live forever. Your spirit goes through these periods of good and bad and that is the nature of our maturity. It is healthy and wise to go through that because of the nature of the world. The world is old and dead, but it does not have to be the same for you. You do not need to die and I don’t want you to die.

I am dead on the inside. The depression that I feel constantly is killing me on the inside. Even though my spirit may seem alive, it is always being killed slowly. One day, I will die because I will lose you and that will make me into a better person in the end. That should not be an indication that I want to lose you, rather, I want to learn all that I can from you and I want you to make me into a better person. That will make me even better and that will prepare me in the end to lose you. That loss will still be great, but it will be something that I will be ready for.

The fall of mankind is the source of all the suffering of the world. You do not need to be saddened by the things of the world because it is only temporary. Life is temporary and life will go through the ups and downs. This is the nature of society and this is the nature of mankind because of our animalistic tendencies and instincts. It is because of those things that we are able to be in the positions that we are in today and it is because of those things that we are also able to prevail. It is finally because of those things that we are able to support one another and we can not do these things alone. I am telling you that you cannot go through life alone and that you need the support of the people around you all along the way to lift you up when you are most down.

I am not telling this to you to keep you down. I am telling you this in the hopes that it will lift you up one day and that you are able to move on in this life with your head held high. I know that you are going through, have gone through, and will go through struggles in your life and I know that you know that I am going through them too. We all go through the struggles of life because of who we are and what we do to ourselves and those around us. It is the things around us that make us into who we are as human beings. I want you to leave me with a message of hope that you will leave for me. I want you to leave me with a message that I am able to share with the world. That is a part of my own destiny.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March 2013 regarding his understanding of the people that came to him in the past and some of the major points of some of the people that came in Ryan’s past. It was meant to help Ryan to come to an understanding about the patterns that these people went through in his life so that he can prepare for the future.

Dear Angel of Hope,

It has been said that you are the last of the long line of people to come through my life, and in many ways, that may be true. You are the last and I feel like you will be because I do think that the purpose of my life has been part way fulfilled because of the blessings that I will be able to receive because of what I have written. You are the last because I have had not a single person in my life who was like you. I want you to know and I need to be able to understand the power of the people that came through my life that I have loved like you. You are the last of these crushes because of the fact that I am going to be going through a change in my life. I am not perfect, but I know that I will go into a great future with my life going public. I know that you are not perfect either, but I know that this will allow you to understand what I have gone through and what you will eventually put me through.

It was not always the most expected people of my life that influenced me the most. I have been with the most diverse set of people to ever grace my life and that gives me more experience than I ever imagined. I am not the best with the girls of my life, but I have seen them all and I have been through almost every heartbreak that there is to have. I think that it allows me to understand your place in my life and you hold a special place in my heart like the others do. It is important for you to know this because it is something that means a lot to me. We will go through the rise and the fall, but I don’t know how long that time period is and I don’t know what will happen. All I know is that I am happy to have you in my life now and that we need to make the best of it for my sake and for your sake as well.

I know that most of your influence will come after you leave. I am not looking forward to it, but I know that your leaving will have a lasting impact on my life. When Shannon left my life, she influenced my life in ways that were unintended because of the fact that many people influenced me through her. When Kelly left my life, I almost changed religions because of what happened after she left my life here. I was left in a place that I did not expect to be in and make decisions that I did not expect to come across. I am not perfect and I have been through a lot, but I think that this experience gives me a lot to think about and this experience also allows me to help those around me. I don’t know if it will help you because I don’t know much about your past, but I hope that I can be useful to you.

The problem with all of it is that I don’t know if I was of any use to you. I don’t know if you need me or if you want me to leave you alone. You are one of the most amazing people to come across my life and I don’t want that to change about you. You have already been a great influence on my life and that really helps me to better understand what I need to do to improve my chances with the next one to come along. That is how we can learn throughout our life. Most people in the world will not understand how to live life and they will make the same mistakes time and time again. It is something of a travesty to go through life in this way and to not understand the way that life is set up. People don’t learn from the experiences that they have and they will probably go through the rest of life without understanding how life works for them and for those around them. We are all connected and I know that something that I learned in my life will rub off on you.

I know of many people that I interacted with over the years learned something from me. I don’t know how it helped them in the future, but I know that it will cause them great joy in the eternities. That is what life is all about and that is what we need to do as human beings to one another. We cannot go through this life without understanding our place in it and the path to the light that we are all seeking whether we know it or not. Many of us are looking in the wrong places for this happiness and it will be something that will be more glorious than what we could ever imagine. I strive for it as well, and you are just meeting me in this place and at this time. I will tell you how each of these extraordinary people shaped my life and how it can be applied to your own understanding of what your life means and the contributions that other people made to your life. I know that it will be amazing for you.

I hope that you find these intercessions and these people in your life to be helpful. I know that I will have more in the future. People come into my life for a reason and I know that having you in my life at this moment has a meaning that I have yet to fully understand. I know that you will benefit as well because of the things that I can provide for you.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March of 2013 concerning the heavens and the earth interact and come together, being one of the main questions that Angel of Hope had asked Ryan during his time with her. It was something that he understood as coming full circle on in his life in his quest to find out what was true.

Dear Angel of Hope,

The heavens are in a higher plane than the earth, but I do not know where or how that plane is. All I know about that place is that it is of a much higher glory than what we can comprehend. I know that you and I are in the process of trying to find that right path, but I think that with confidence, you and I will both be able to find that and achieve it in our life. I have no doubt about your abilities like you have no doubt in mine. I will support you as much as you have been able to support me. I will be there for you and I will vouch for the goodness of your life in the end. We will all be judged by those that we know by the fruits of our labors on the earth. I know that we will have the backs of one another. I don’t know what the nature of the heavens will be like, but I see it like I see the most glorious thing on the face of the earth. I have no doubt about that glory.

The earth is also full of good things, but it is also full of evil. I want to warn you about the evil that plagues this society and that there is nothing that we can do to change that alone. The only thing that can change that is a shift in the thoughts of all of mankind. I have no doubt that it will happen one day, but it will not happen now. I know that you have faith in some of the false doctrines of man, but I see you in a place similar to the place that I was in shortly before I broke it all off. I got to that point through a great conflict in my religious thought and I think that you will as well because of the thought that you put in it. You have been good to me before and I desire to make you good as well. I want to put all of your questions at ease about the nature of the heavens and the earth and that I also want you to know that you will be there.

At the end of the life of all mankind, we will all see the light and it will be laid out before us. Many of us will and have seen it in life, but most will not understand it until death. There are still some that will not succumb to their own fate and they will walk the earth for all time. I have no faith in those who do not have faith in themselves. We need to love ourselves and accept who we are before we are able to reach out to love other people. I have no doubt that you will go through this as well and that I know that you will one day love and have faith in yourself. I, on the other hand, have a lot to learn from this, but look at how far I have been. I will go further with your help and loving support for me.

I will admit that I do not love myself enough to care about you. I care about you and I love you, but I do not think that I can give you what I know that you deserve. I want to try, however, and I think that your love for me is inspiring. I do not think that I will have the ability to get higher if I cannot convince you of the legitimacy of my works and deeds to mankind. This sacrifice that I am making will surely change the hearts of many of the people around me and around the world. I have already convinced many people of my life and how it can apply to others. You will be a part of that mythology of my life and you will have the great seat along with the others that have come before you and will come after you. I have no doubt about that either. That will be your legacy. That is what you need to know about getting to the heavens and all you need to know about the earth when it comes to the core of your purpose and your destiny.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in April 2013 about the true nature of the journey, which has been understood by Ryan up to this point because he was able to recognize the patterns that constituted his life and his journey.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I implore you to look at your life and find the meaning of the journey that you have been on thus far. Everything in life happens for a reason and everyone you meet in your life has a purpose. It will not always be immediate, but it will come to you at some point and in some way. Too many people brush these things off and they make the same mistakes and they never find happiness. You can be happy if you choose to be and you can impart great wisdom if you look at the nature of your life and what you can get from all these experiences. I have been through this many times in my life and you are just the latest of these people. I know that you will leave me one day, but I hope that you can take this knowledge and impart it on your life. I am saddened when I don’t see people doing this in their life.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in May of 2013 after her ascension into the classification of the angels, which he explains more about in the following letter. It explains the purpose, gifts, and legacies of each of them up to the point of Angel of Hope and it also explains why Angel of Hope was so different from the other Angels and why she was considered the last of the old guard.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I know that you may be wondering why you may be considered the last of the crushes of the old guard and what made you so different from the other people and why you may be the key to the future. I am wondering the same thing in my own life. I think that you are the key or the bridge from the past and into the future. You came into my life when I was at a point when I was going through a phase in transition from the private to the public. I also went through a point in which I experienced more maturity and I now seek people who are more accomplished. You were the first in that line of people in my life who had accomplished a lot.

For the first ten, for example, I learned a piece of wisdom and one of the virtues in my life through the experiences that I had with some of the previous Guardian Angels in my life. Shannon taught me the gift of wisdom and the virtue of charity. Mary taught me the gift of fear and the virtue of temperance. Kelly taught me the gift of reverence and the virtue of justice and kindness. Aislynn taught me the gift of counsel and the virtue of prudence and chastity. Alaina taught me the gift of fortitude and the virtue of courage and diligence. Samantha, Miranda, Sarah, and Nicole taught me the gift of understanding and the virtue of faith and patience. Alissa taught me the gift of fear and the virtue of hope and humility. Sara was the transition to you, which is also a transition into the future. I did not know what to think of you and Sara at first, but now I see all the things that you two have since contributed to my life and now I understand what I did wrong in the past.

It was through these experiences that I came to understand these pieces of wisdom. It could not be done by just knowing about them. One has to experience them for themselves in order to come to a true understanding of the people and the events in their life. That is the beginning of true wisdom and that is when one comes to a true understanding. That is something that people overlook most often and that is the beginning of all the problems of the life of the individual. We can overcome anything in life that we set our minds to as long as we understand what our life has come to. Take a close look at your life and I will take a close look at mine and we shall discover what we can learn from one another. This is the time and this is the place because we do not have much time on this earth compared to the eternities.

Now that you are out of my life, I do not know what to do for the future. I know that the people in my life will be different and my relationships with these people will also be different. I know that my future holds people who will be just as ambitious as I am and that these people will challenge my intentions. I know that these people will come from a whole new line of people and that these people will be better than any of the previous ones. Now that I am looking back on the things in the world that I did in the past, I realize that these people in my past are not as ambitious and not as attractive to me. I would like them to see what I have become and how much I matured in my life because of these people. It was not easy at times, and it hurts to lose you, but I know that I will discover something and become a batter person as a result of the influence that you had on my life. At this point, I am used to the bad things that happen with the loss of a person, but I am never prepared for what I learn, and that is what hurts the most.

I understand that things in life happen for a good reason. I know that I have a purpose in my life and that the people in my life have a purpose. Sometimes, you don’t seem to understand what you have and what you lost before it is too late. It is also hard to understand and learn things from people while they are in your life. Sometimes, you have to lose the friends that you love in order to understand why things are the way they are in the world. It is the friend that influences your path in life the most and it is the friend that is the most flexible in coming and going. You can gain a friend fast, but you can also lose a friend fast. It is not easy to get through, but it is possible for all of us to come to this understanding of the nature of the world and the nature of friendships and that will make all of us appreciate them better.

I am sorry that I did not see this while I was friends with you. I should have appreciated you more and I should have better understood what you were going through. I love how you have influenced my life and I love how I have been able to contribute to yours, but I feel like something was missing in that life and now I do not have the opportunity to gain it from you.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March 2013 regarding her question to him on the fall of society, which this letter, as it will show, will have the ability to answer.

Dear Angel of Hope,

Society has been in turmoil from the beginning. Society on this earth is made to be corrupt because of our animalistic tendencies. We are like that because of nature, not because of our decisions. Our decisions, however, allow us to not give in to these things. The path to salvation lies in the individual’s decision and we will be held accountable to our actions in the end. I know that you will be fine because of who you are and what you stand for. Although you may feel unloved sometimes, I will try and be there for you and you will support me in the same. I am sure that, together, we can rise above our shortcomings through the support of one another. We can work through the fall together, but these decisions are up to you. As much as I would love to support you, I will not force it on you because I cannot tell you what to do. This part of the life we are living in is something that cannot be avoided, so we as human beings have to come to terms with our place in the universe and our society. That will be my calling and that will be our destiny as human beings.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March 2013 in response to a question that was asked about the nature of life after death, which was a question that Ryan had come across many times in his life up to this point and it is also a question posed by all of us that gave rise to religion in general.

Dear Angel of Hope,

In regards to your question about your life after death, I don’t know what happens. Really, however, none of us knows what happens when we die. All of humanity tries to answer this question in their own way and in their own context. It is not impossible to understand why we need to claim to know what happens after we die. It is really a paradox to think that religions of the world know what the truth of death is. There are many conflicting stories and it is clear to us that we do not really know what that truth is. We will continue to try and understand until the day that we do die. All we can say about our death is that we will no longer be alive on the earth and that we will go to something else as the spiritual side of our being.

You were raised in a religion that believes in heaven and hell. How can we be sure that heaven really exists? How can we be sure that hell really exists? What criteria do we have to meet to get to that point? All of these questions have been vaguely heard of and read about and all of these claims are just claims. Nobody who teaches about heaven has been there. How can you tell others about a place that you have never been yourself? Many people claim to have these visions, but how can we be sure of these visions as they are today? The short answer is that we really can’t.

Instead of focusing on the afterlife, we need to focus on this life, the here and now. I implore you to do the same because the time that we have on the earth to make an impact is short and we won’t come back as the same person. That is something that we all have to understand. Life is short and life is not easy. We need to remember that and it is so easy to forget in our life. We should not live as if we are waiting to die, but we should die having lived our life to the fullest day by day. It is sometimes hard to do so in the larger scope, but it is easy to do the little things that make life more meaningful for all of us.

You need to always remember to take care of one another, yourself, and to care for your posterity above all others. Do to your posterity in a positive way that your ancestors did for you to get to this point. Life is not as bad as many people think it is, however, life is not as good as people think it is. In the true essence of things, life is not what most people think it is because it is much more mysterious than what we can wrap our heads around. Even I don’t know of the completeness of the divine plan and nobody really knows what god wants from us. It is still a mystery to all of us, but it is something that many people claim to know the fullness of. The biggest questions of our life will never be answered and we will never know of the answer until we are able to come to the point of death. We will one day know, but why waste your time putting your hopes on one idea? There are many ideas and it is up to us to discover what idea we want to go with because it more likely than not will prove to be false.

What is the nature of life after death, you asked? I don’t know and I don’t want to tell you anything that I am not sure of myself. I am also going to tell you that you should not lose hope for your future. Your life will be full of wonder and exploration and it will be glorious in the end. Your life is short, but you should not waste it on meaningless things for a hope that may not turn out to be true in the end.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March of 2013 regarding the nature of the heavens, which is similar to a question that was asked by Angel of Hope to Ryan upon the release of his first book during that time.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I do not know what the heavens and the afterlife will look like. I have ideas of what it will be like, but I imagine that it will be different for a lot of people. Whatever people think will happen to them, it will be true to those people and it will be what sustains them for their earthly life. Many people cannot fathom being around for a short time, but that should not hold people back from living their life to the fullest of their abilities. We need to make life in the here and now count too and not just look for the path to the heavens. That is not the purpose of our life and that should not be the focus of our existence. The heavens will be so glorious that we cannot contain our place in it. We need to look to the future always, but that should not be the only thing that we should look to. Remember the moment that you are living in now and make that difference in your life now.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March 2013 regarding the hope that is found in the allegory of the tree of life, which is something the both of them needed at that time in some way because of the things that they were going through at the same time.

Dear Angel of Hope,

The tree of life is the tree that we all hope to get to. It is something that is at the core of who we are as human beings and as a spiritual being. The tree of life and what it represents is what sets us apart from all animals in the world. It is something that all of us need to understand in our own life as well. The understanding of the tree of life is the core of our destiny.

I know that you and I have been through a lot up to this point, but I am telling you that for the bad, there is a lot of good. The hope that is found in the tree of life allows us to understand who we are and what our destiny is. Many people in the world look at the tree of life as something that brings us back to perfection, to eden, to our roots. That is what we need to strive for in the constant chaos of the world and of society.

Eden is a state of being that is like the city in the wilderness. Understanding the tree of life and the roots of who we are is the key for our understanding of ourselves and the true state of the world around us. We well come upon the tree of life when the time is right on our path to the light. We need to constantly be on our guard so that the time will come when we discover it, for it will come on its own time. That is the nature of life. It is a constant mystery as to what life will bring and what things will come to you. This is why people don’t understand their own life and the way it works and this is why people suffer so much in the world. Be on your guard always and you will be prepared for your times to come.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in March of 2013 that is a response to a dream that he had about her and that was a dream in which she presented a question to him about life.

Dear Angel of Hope,

Before we reach the light of the world, we need to go through the deepest depths of depression. This is what makes me qualified to say these things. I have seen the worst of humanity and I have seen the best of humanity. Many people in the world see the worst and they have nowhere else to turn. Many people make strides in their life to avoid all the things that are bad in their life. I have been through those times after trying to avoid them and after trying to end it all when things got bad, and I survived in the end. That is where I found out who I really was and what I was really made of. We find out who we are through the people and the events that shape our lives and it is in those dark moments that we are able to find out who we truly are. I seek to have these times when things are too good for me. I want to mature above all else. The sorrows of my life bring the greatest fulfillment of happiness because it is in those moments that we are truly lucky for what we have.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in February 2014 concerning the nature of God, which is something that Ryan had thought long and hard about over the years of going through many different religious traditions. There are many different traditions that have many different viewpoints on god, but the reality of what god may be is something that is much different because it is more believable and provable.

Dear Angel of Hope,

Many of the religious traditions of the world have their views on what god is and who god is. I have experienced many of these people that claim to know god and know what god is and they tell other people what to do. I thought the same things out of believing many of the same people myself over the years. I know that these things are now false and that god is something that is beyond the scope of our understanding. We will bring god down to something that is understandable to us and it is something that is beyond that understanding. It is also like that because it is more believable to the faith of humanity. It is easier for humans to believe in a personal god, but the true nature of god is something that is beyond our understanding and surprisingly simple.

God is who we are. God is what we make of the world. God is defined by us in our understanding. We do not have the know or understand god because it is something that we define in our life. On the other hand, we are shaped by god in the universe. We are, in turn, shaped by the world and how the world works around us. There are things in the world that are beyond our control and it is controlled by the divine plan that has been set forth from the beginning. We need to look at the world in two different ways, one that is extremely personal and one that is part of the whole. We need to look at the nature of god in these two separate ways as well, and the Christian faith makes strides in trying to separate the two. People on the whole cannot fathom this themselves and it is something that people need to embrace. Like our life is seen in two different ways, we need to look at god in the same way.

God is out there. God is also in all of us. God will not do anything for us that we cannot do ourselves. God is not one to intercede on our behalf and god is not someone that will give us everything we want. We do most of the things in our life through our own will and things happen to us in our life because of the will of others. There is nothing, say a few things that may even come close to supernatural intercession. There is a natural explanation to the way some things pan out in the world but there are many natural things that we have yet to understand. The things in the world that we do not understand constitute god. God has been and forever will be the things that we have yet to understand and we have to recognize that these things will change over time.

In regards to your question, Angel of Hope, that is what I think about the god of the universe and in the universe. The explanation that people have about god is just representations of their attempts to understand that which cannot be understood fully. The god of the universe is one force, but works in two separate ways in our life depending of the perspective that we choose to place on it. That is the easiest way to explain it and that will allow us to look at our life in a different way.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in June of 2013 regarding his reflections on his journey thus far during his third vision, which is in three parts. The first letter from this time reflects on the first part of his journey, which was by far the most lucrative, involving his time with Shannon, Mary, Kelly, Aislynn, and Alaina.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I had seen the first part of my journey come to me right before my eyes. In that first vision, I saw the two figures that I saw from that night in May of 2009 telling me to reflect upon these times and to recite what I see to you again. I see great figures and I see great heartbreaks. In the times of trial, I see the things that I learned from that time. I had learned a lot through that time and it has been manifest in my time with you. I see them now moving to the west and they stand behind me. I do not know where they went, but I know that they are with me in spirit. There will never come a day where I will have them back in my life again. They are dead to me and they shall remain that way, but they will be a part of my life forever. I need to look forward, only occasionally looking back to see those smiling faces behind me. They shall look on me and they shall support me, like they have from the first time that I met them and the first vision that lay before me. The two figures that I saw will move behind me and lift me up to see the beauty that lays in my future. I see that they will all remain behind and that they will not move with me. I will not and cannot stay for them at all.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in June 2013 regarding his reflections on the second part of his journey, which was the time that he spent with Samantha, Miranda, Sarah, Alissa, Sara, and Angel of Hope, and was the precursor to the point in which he was in. It was a tumultuous time for him, which is reflected in his thoughts on this letter in particular.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I don’t know what to say about the time in the past two years. After the death of the Triddium of the beginning, I was thrust into a situation in which I could not escape from clearly. I thought that I wanted to be a Mormon and I spent time with them too. I went out of that more confused and realized something about the ways in which I was brought up. I don’t know where I belong and I don’t know what I need to do to get out of the rut that I am in. It was you that provided me with a clear path. The people from this part of my journey will end up everywhere, but I know that I cannot return to them. It is not in my destiny because if I was, they would have returned to me already. I am still in college and still close to where they are at, but they did not willingly come to me for guidance. You are in the same boat. You did not and probably are not ever going to come back to me.

I saw the figures from the second vision. It was in that vision that the path to write my book came out to me and was revealed to me. It was perhaps one of the most defining moments of my life and it was the point in time when I knew of my destiny, which is the destiny of all mankind. I shall pass this wisdom to the world and it is through you that I realized that I should set out to become well known. I was more confused at that time and it was the result of mass confusion and trying to discover who I am. I decided at that moment that I would have to set out to make my own destiny, but that path would take me down some more confusion and through the lives of more people that I now once loved. The figures that I saw in my second vision are now with all the people that I loved, watching over them and guiding them to see me for who I truly am. They will certainly come to you and they have shown you of my potential as a human being. These times have brought me to the point that I am at today, further reflecting on my future. You are that cap to the future. The people after you will not match up, but they will hold more potential to enhance that path.

With Love,

Ryan

 

Correspondence given to Angel of Hope by Ryan in June of 2013 regarding reflections on his future and who is yet to come to that point. It is unknown to him as to who it will be and how they will influence him, but he knew that Angel of Hope was and will be the capstone to the confusion on that journey. It would be her to make that path to the future clear for him.

Dear Angel of Hope,

I want to know about my future. You have shown me the path but I do not yet know where it will lead or who it will lead to. I have seen that my future lays in the east and it is where you are and will reside going into the future. I do not think that you are in it, but I know that you will support me from the front like the people of the past are supporting me from behind. I do not seek to go back, but to look forward to the day when I see the people clothed in the light of the glory of the sun as it rises in the east to rule the day. I know that the people of my future are going to come from the east and that they will reside in the east in the future. Since you are the end, I do not know what comes to me after this. Will this be the end for me? Will it be a new beginning for me? I do not have any knowledge on my future, but I am clearer as to what my destiny in life is. That is thanks to you and to your guidance through this critical transition of my life from the past and into the future. I hope that all people will look to those people in their lives that are like you and like your guidance.

I know that you will continue to silently support me much like how I have been able to support you and to see you through. This is the greatest mystery of our life. I feel like that all of what I know will be challenged by people that I will love going into the future. I will move forward in this journey and to look to the east for guidance. I shall wait for the day when the bride of mine will come in the fullness of glory and cap my journey once and for all. This is truly what I am searching for. I am looking for the true half of me that will come to me and be one with me in mind, body, and spirit. This will be the ultimate fulfillment of my destiny and it is thanks to you that I will set my standards ever higher.

With Love,

Ryan